&
A ROSE
IS A ROSE
IS A ROSE
(on the morning of the first of august, twenty-twelve)
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Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Monday, 23 July 2012
A DIET OF MILK AND HONEY
After a gap of about 50 years, i return to the sort of diet my mother gave me as a child. i did not do this consciously. Following a morning of exclusively fresh fruit and water, i found myself craving a "plain" vegetable soup. And it was while coarsely chopping the vegetables, that i thought of my dear mother - always in a hurry to prepare meals etc, etc, for her 4 children, born in the space of 10 years. How she would worry if her period was late !! We shared this anxiety with her - at least, i know i did. My parents did want to raise a family - but there was no planning. And the doctor-cousins of my mum, considered that too many children were thrust upon her small frame, at too young an age and with unwanted regularity. Ah well, it was not so bad - tho we struggled financially during the fifties. We managed with mum's economical and thrifty BUT healthy cooking, aided by my father's "Diet Reform" ideas. Not exclusively vegetarian, but pretty damned near !! The non-vegetarian part of a wholesome soup would be the added marrow-bones we got for nothing, from the local butcher, who thought we were giving them to the family dog. We did not have a dog !!
Anyway - MILK AND HONEY. Yes, they were part of our diet, but this was the term used by the first dentist my older brother and i visited. There were no cavities and no problems. The dentist was unused to this and warmly said to my mother = "You've obviously raised them on MILK & HONEY." My mother glowed with pride. Compliments, in a foreign country, were hard-won. Tho, over the years, they did mount-up!! She was a beautiful and fun-loving woman (all her life.)
My mother would have used olive oil to sautee the vegetables for soup - (i don't cook with oil. i do not like to heat-up oils and rarely add even raw, cold-pressed oils to salads or anything.) As we got more money, by the time my younger brother was born, there were chicken carcasses to add to the vegetable soups, the high-light of which, was to pick every scrap of meat off the bones, once the soup had been devoured. We ate what we were given. We enjoyed everything we were given. And there was no choice. But it was not "take it or leave it", as we enjoyed every crumb and every morsel...and every uncooked lump in the semolina puddings !! ..And the junket, when it curdled, was still happily devoured.
My diet of the last 2 days has included lots of fruit; lots of salad; the soup!!; self-baked spelt bread; lightly-steamed vegetables; a little basil tofu; dare i say, that i bought and consumed a little unpasteurised, french goat's cheese - (no need for B12 tablets on this irreverent vegan diet of mine !!) and lots and lots of water. Ah, the stuffed vine-leaves, a few nuts, chocolate soya pudding ....is that it ? Oh, a glass of Mateuse Rose, these last 2 evenings. That sounds great - but in fact, i did not enjoy the alcohol. i drink for taste and flavour, not for the effect...and i do not enjoy that heavy feeling, especially when twinned with sitting zazen. It seems to me, lately, that alcohol itself has a heavy flavour - and i do not like it !! For i am a man brought-up on the sweetness of milk and honey, from a mother's own loving and honeyed breast.
Anyway - MILK AND HONEY. Yes, they were part of our diet, but this was the term used by the first dentist my older brother and i visited. There were no cavities and no problems. The dentist was unused to this and warmly said to my mother = "You've obviously raised them on MILK & HONEY." My mother glowed with pride. Compliments, in a foreign country, were hard-won. Tho, over the years, they did mount-up!! She was a beautiful and fun-loving woman (all her life.)
My mother would have used olive oil to sautee the vegetables for soup - (i don't cook with oil. i do not like to heat-up oils and rarely add even raw, cold-pressed oils to salads or anything.) As we got more money, by the time my younger brother was born, there were chicken carcasses to add to the vegetable soups, the high-light of which, was to pick every scrap of meat off the bones, once the soup had been devoured. We ate what we were given. We enjoyed everything we were given. And there was no choice. But it was not "take it or leave it", as we enjoyed every crumb and every morsel...and every uncooked lump in the semolina puddings !! ..And the junket, when it curdled, was still happily devoured.
My diet of the last 2 days has included lots of fruit; lots of salad; the soup!!; self-baked spelt bread; lightly-steamed vegetables; a little basil tofu; dare i say, that i bought and consumed a little unpasteurised, french goat's cheese - (no need for B12 tablets on this irreverent vegan diet of mine !!) and lots and lots of water. Ah, the stuffed vine-leaves, a few nuts, chocolate soya pudding ....is that it ? Oh, a glass of Mateuse Rose, these last 2 evenings. That sounds great - but in fact, i did not enjoy the alcohol. i drink for taste and flavour, not for the effect...and i do not enjoy that heavy feeling, especially when twinned with sitting zazen. It seems to me, lately, that alcohol itself has a heavy flavour - and i do not like it !! For i am a man brought-up on the sweetness of milk and honey, from a mother's own loving and honeyed breast.
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Tuesday, 17 July 2012
MY MOTHER PHOTOGRAPHED W/ FRIEND, 1935
"Little Mum"
is what "We"
called you
and there
you are
11 years old
in full swimsuit
w/ your friend
Suzanne Kranze
in just her pants
at whose home
you dined
on rice and
grated cheese
&
forever-and-a-day
would eat
only that
vegetarian food
AH, LA DOLCE FARNIENTE !
"Hello and goodbye."
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17/ july/ 2012
is what "We"
called you
and there
you are
11 years old
in full swimsuit
w/ your friend
Suzanne Kranze
in just her pants
at whose home
you dined
on rice and
grated cheese
&
forever-and-a-day
would eat
only that
vegetarian food
AH, LA DOLCE FARNIENTE !
"Hello and goodbye."
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17/ july/ 2012
AFTER MODIGLIANI
i warm
to your
long neck
&
dark eyes
your flesh
is pale
&
sensitive
as if in
chill reaction
to having
quickly undone
buttons & bows
until you
are the artist's
"seated nude."
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13/ july/ 2012
Tuesday, 10 July 2012
A GESTURE / p.s. - MU...
A GESTURE
flowers from
the field
on my
mother's shrine -
i leave them
in the vase
until
they are
fully spent.
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to the memory of my mother : BERTHE TAWA : 26.viii.2010
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P.S.- MU...
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P.P.S - 27 Sept. 2012
P.S.- MU...
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P.P.S - 27 Sept. 2012
July's flowers still in place - dried-up... no water left in vase to rehydrate... dead to the world...but still a part of the scenery...day in, day out...
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Saturday, 30 June 2012
IT IS NOT ALL ABOUT FOOD, BUT IT SURE HELPS!
3 O'CLOCK. UP AND SLOWLY INTO YOGA FOR THE NEXT HOUR. HAD BEEN UP EARLIER, FOR SIPS OF WATER, BUT ONCE THE PRACTICE WAS OVER, HAD MY USUAL PINT OF ROOM-TEMPERATURE WATER WITH HALF A SQUEEZED LEMON.
WATCHED H.H. DALAI LAMA GIVING TALK ON MEDITATION & HAPPINESS...
BREAKFAST
ONE GRAPEFRUIT & 2 SATSUMAS
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5.3O'ISH OUT FOR CYCLE RIDE IN DIRECTION OF THE SEA-FRONT. SOME TEENAGERS ASK ME IF I CAN DRIVE THEM HOME! THEN, CHAT WITH AIDAN @ HIS PHOENIX BAKERY. HOME @ SIX FOR...
A FEW SOAKED ALMONDS (20?)
(PROTEIN AFTER EXERCISE)
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MADE A POT OF HERBAL TEA, TO SIP WHEN COOL DURING THE MORNING, UNTIL I GOT TO GO OUT - I HAD A MAIL-ORDER DELIVERY...
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7.00....ZAZEN...
25 minutes sitting....i do not have a timer....i do not have a strict schedule....i do not sit on zafu (cushion) since damaging left hip and knee, following directive of..."pain is the taste of zazen." TOOK ABOUT 12 YEARS TO HEAL...
...just "suddenly" noticed one day, when i had resumed yoga practice once again. i do sit on zafu - it has such a good postural feeling...but only for "fun", for a few minutes, to remember the MAGIC ...
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LATER IN MORNING, AN HOUR OR SO OF GARDENING IN THE SUNSHINE...ATE FIVE PLUMS... HAD HERBAL TEA, FROM TEA-POT, & WATER, UNTIL MAKING MY WAY TO DORCHESTER - FINALLY GETTING TO LEAVE AT ABOUT 11.00.
OUT FOR 3 HOURS OR SO. CONSUMED...
SMALL PUNNET OF BLUEBERRIES
ONE BANANA
MINERAL WATER, AS DESIRED
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@ 15.00 I WAS DRINKING THIS FROM MY PINT GLASS..
...WHICH I JUICED FROM THESE...
DEEEE-LISH-USSS!
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MY DAD WOULD'VE RECOGNISED THE "MAGIC" IN THE WOODED SCENE I SAW, WHILE CYCLING ALONG THE RODWELL TRAIL, THIS A'NOON...BUT HE NO LONGER ACCEPTED THAT THERE WAS ANY "MAGIC" IN FOOD. AND CERTAINLY NOT IN THE VARIOUS DIETS I ADOPTED OVER THE YEARS. HE WOULD QUIP AT MY SALADS..."IS THAT THE SERVING BOWL?!" HE COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT A MEAL LIKE THIS...
...WAS ANY MORE "MAGICAL" THAN HIS SHEPHERD'S PIE, BOUGHT FROM THE LOCAL SUPERMARKET. AND IT WAS HE WHO REARED US AS VEGETARIAN BABIES IN THE LATE 40'S AND EARLY 50'S. BUT HE DID CONTINUE WITH HIS HATHA YOGA, EVEN WHEN HE HAD LEUKAEMEA. BUT WOULD NOT TRY A GREEN JUICE ON A REGULAR BASIS. BUT. BUT. BUT....WE DID GET VERY CLOSE, AT LAST, AT THE END OF HIS LIFE. AND WE WOULD NATTER FOR AGES IN THE LATE A'NOONS, WHEN I WOULD BRING HIM FRESH CREAM CAKE AND A CUP OF TEA! IT WAS WHAT HE WANTED. IT WAS WHAT HE LIVED FOR AT 86 YEARS OF AGE. AND IT WAS THE FOOD THAT BROUGHT US TOGETHER MORESO, WHEN HE WAS ILL. IT WAS NOT HEALTH-FOOD...OR WAS IT?!
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LIFE IS NOT ALL ABOUT FOOD. THERE IS MAGIC IN FOOD - BUT IT CANNOT BE QUANTIFIED.
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ON THE BUSES - #1 & #2
#1
heart of compassion
as at stop after stop
after stop
pensioners board bus
SLOWLY
moment by moment
Buddha's dilemma
understandable.
#2
pink ear-phones
freckled face
silver crucifix
immaculate nail-varnish
fingers at i-Phone
gone too soon
my blueberries
also
have the
desired taste.
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june 30th 2012 - twixt weymouth & dorchester.
heart of compassion
as at stop after stop
after stop
pensioners board bus
SLOWLY
moment by moment
Buddha's dilemma
understandable.
#2
pink ear-phones
freckled face
silver crucifix
immaculate nail-varnish
fingers at i-Phone
gone too soon
my blueberries
also
have the
desired taste.
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june 30th 2012 - twixt weymouth & dorchester.
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